One Million Dollars
Today I held ONE MILLION DOLLARS!!!! Well actually it was a winning lottery ticket for a million dollars. (Still pretty cool) A coworker bought it this morning and scratched it at his desk. He yelled “I F#ckin WON! Woohoo!” Man it was exciting. We all held the ticket and later celebrated with milkshakes. Soon there after I began to get very angry I had not won instead. Do you know what I could do with that much money?? Buy a house! A new BMW X6 SUV! Tattoos! Designer jeans! I mean there is a lot that could do for me and my wife. We are nice people and we deserve a break like that. Right? After about an hour of being mad that I didn’t win it hit me…
Damn, I am so selfish.
Never did I think about how I could bless others with that much money. How many homeless people I could feed and cloth. How many single moms I could get out of debt. How I could dig wells in Kenya. Man I am selfish… The more it hit me the worse I felt too. I sat in my office and cried for a few minutes and honestly asked God for forgiveness for putting my own kingdom first and neglecting those less fortunate.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m a nice guy. I’m not Hitler or anything. I love to help people out and most people would say I am a nice guy (well some would) but that isn’t good enough. As a follower of Jesus I am called to be set apart and my selfishness only points others to why I am cool and deserve their validation, while being selfless points them to Jesus. I hope to be more of the later. Man I have a lot to learn…
